Monday, July 31, 2006 @ 1:08 PM

emo emo emo. When the booze kicks in, the mind whirls, you think. and not just think, you tend to remember those memories that trigger the tearducts. it always happens. i tried, and failed. i tried again, yet failed again. a cycle perhaps? The pain isnt caused when you get yourself battered and bruised in the journey; it is when you've finally endured your way to the checkpoint, u realised it all comes down to emptiness..

Sometime i feel that i am really insensitive, hurting people around me without knowing . I am sincerely sorry if i said something that hurt you . Heartwrenching yet helpless.

People always see me as a cheerful and optimistic lady but there are so much things in my heart that are making me really upset . Somethings are better left unsaid. I know that i need to be strong and overcome all the obstacles myself . I just dont understand why some people can be so fake and appear to be an angel in front of you but at your back , they are gossiping about you .
Well , if you are someone like this , please leave my blog . Even good friends cant be trust , they may gossip about you anytime . It is really saddening when you found out that your good friends actually gossip with bitches about you . I admit i gossip about people but i will never gossip my BEST FRIENDS OR GOOD FRIENDS ! And some GUYS are just so bitchy ! Said things that are not true and spread the rumours around ! WTH ! They will come over treating you so nicely yet u saw that hint of a "eye-rolling gesture" when he thinks you're not looking? Please be more mature . There are so many things for you to do if you are bored , stop spreading rumours that are not true ! PIMPS ! Really look down on these guys .
* PLEASE DO NOT ASK ME WHO AM I REFERING TO IN MY BLOG , IF I WANT TO LET YOU KNOW , I WILL TELL YOU .

But i am glad that i have a few true friends that will always be my side no matter what happen . You should know who you are :)

I guess study is the most important thing in my mind now . Dont wish to think of other stuffs .

I hope whatever i said wont cause any emotional harm to anyone. Cause i just want to pour out all my grievances, can i?

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